A Self-Study Within A Broken Mind

I came back two days later after re-reading the beginning when I met Lila. She posed as a kid on a time-out for “bullying her brother”. Not knowing what she really did would have been better, but there was no taking that reveal back. We were both monsters in the end, but even those deserve some kind of comfort in the eyes of those who pose themselves as better. For some reason, I entered the library through the garden, and was very surprised to find Tarne there. She was sitting alone in the lush green, facing away, one hand propping her back up on the rock. I walked up, but paused when she made a specific sound. Without warning, beast made my body invisible just as her back arched, casting her gaze towards where I stood. Her face was contorted in euphoria, content in privacy of the garden while too obviously masturbating. I wanted to say something, but beast held me rooted to the ground, invisible. His cage was gone, no bindings holding him back. I put out a hand in my mind, and wore h...

I came back two days later, following a read of a philosophical part of the text before. It was scary when Lila sounded smarter and made more sense than me. It made me believe that this was actually happening. I entered the library to find Kara and Lila already waiting for me. They were likely sitting there just waiting for a good hour, since I was not sure at what time I started. “Hey,” I said, with a wave of a hand. “I’m sorry I wasn’t here yesterday. It’s honestly weird saying ‘yesterday’ since you don’t really keep track of my time. I mean, there is a clock downstairs in the room, but nothing here works on my reality’s time.” I paused, shifting between the two of them. They were not moving, not even to blink. It felt like— “See, I told you it would fool him,” a voice spoke from above. I looked up to find Lila, Kara, and Tarne suspended in rainbow-looking bubbles. There were two more beings in the air, but they were standing on air. “You have poor timing.” “Fyntn?” I asked. “The thi...